Eleven Weeks

So, writing about being pregnant every week has been just not possible during the first trimester.  Man!  Those first months are hard!  Thankfully, I haven’t been “go to the hospital for fluids” sick, but it sure does take a lot of time everyday to convince myself to eat, find what I want/ can eat, get rest, and have patience among the pregnancy hormones.

How far along? 11 weeks

Baby's size? Over 1.5 inches- a lime! 

Total weight gain: At least 5 lbs.  More than I would like, but at least I’m not losing thanks to being super sick.  Gotta count the blessings!

Maternity clothes? Pants- yep!  About to start wearing the shirts too- it’s getting a little tight upstairs too…

Sleep: Waking up at least once for a potty break.  But I got a new pillow last night and man, did I sleep well!

Best moment(s) this past week: We just started telling some close friends and extended family- such a wonderful outpouring of love from everyone!  Also, the Texas wildflowers are out!  Yay bluebonnets!

Miss Anything?  Lunch meat!  Oh, how I want a good, cold meat sandwich!

Movement: I sometimes feel like a flutter in my abdomen area, but all the books and websites say that I shouldn’t feel anything yet.  So, no?

Anything making you queasy or sick: Yep, no real pattern though.  So that makes it fun!  Kind of…

Cravings:  Popcorn, hotdogs, chicken salad sandwiches.  Really, everyday I want something different.

Labor Signs: Nope.

Gender: To be determined…

Symptoms:  Nausea, tired at lunchtime on most days (yay for 2 hour work break for naptime!), and finally mood swings.  Got to feel “stabby” for the first time this week.  Luckily, today I feel ridiculously happy!

Belly Button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On!!  But the CTR ring is off.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Back and forth.

Looking forward to:  Using my new pillow all this week!  And taking cute “we’re having a baby” pictures next weekend!

Five Weeks

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I’m pregnant!!  After 6 months of trying, we’ve been so very blessed to have a little one on the way!  Since it’s my first time being pregnant (obviously), we’ve only told out immediate family so far, just in case it’s hard to keep.  But it’s so hard not to tell!  We’re so very excited and have so many wonderful people in our lives that we want to share the good news with!  Hopefully, these blogs will catch everyone up to where we’re at in the pregnancy once I make them public.  Also, my hope is to include as many loved ones along this journey, near or far.  I had a cousin and cousin-in-law do this during their pregnancy, and with living so far from them, it was wonderful to keep track of what they were experiencing!

How far along? 5 weeks

Baby's size? a sesame seed

Total weight gain:  0, I think…

Maternity clothes? Yes, but only because my best fitting, pre-pregnancy jeans got a tear in them last week.  It the super awkward crotch spot.  So, we made a Target run to get a pair of jeans at 9:30 pm on a Saturday.  We saw some friends at the store (of course, with our luck), through the pants in a hallway, and said hi as discretely as possible… it’s hard for us to keep this a secret…

Sleep: Not a problem, thank goodness!  I love me some sleep!

Best moment(s) this past week: Finding out I was pregnant! 

Miss Anything?  Not really… it’s all about the same still.

Movement: Nope.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Overeating.  I have this weird nausea sensation when I’m on the verge of eating too much.  If I stop eating right then, it goes away.  And I’m super grateful things aren’t bad now.

Cravings:  Tomatoes!!  I could almost eat them like an apple!  Almost…

Labor Signs: Nope.

Gender: To be determined…

Symptoms:  I change quickly from the nausea full feeling to being hungry (like an hour).  Sore boobs! Wow, do they hurt! (sorry for the TMA… :o) A little more tired.

Belly Button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On!!

Happy or Moody most of the time: Back and forth.

Looking forward to:  Our first doctor’s appointment and being able to tell the world!  We’re so excited but only have told our immediate family so far.

Mourning in Faith

My last living grandparent died last night.  My dear Grandpa Jerry.  He had a mild heart attack a couple weeks ago, was in the ICU for almost 3 weeks, but just got put into a rehab unit since he was doing so well.  They were making plans for rehab and hopes of him coming home.  Then, out of no where, he was gone.  I knew he wasn't going to live forever, but I thought he had months left, not days.  I got to see him last weekend while he was still in the ICU, which I'm so grateful for.

I know that God is real, that He has a plan for us.  I know that my Grandpa Jerry is finally reunited with his sweetheart, my Grandma Joy, after being gone for several years, and suffering with Alzheimer disease for many years before that.  Eternal families are real, and temple sealings are the key.

But I am also really sad.

I'm sad that my grandpa died.  I'm sad that he won't know my future children in this life.  I'm sad that I don't have any more living grandparents.  I'm sad that a whole generation is lost.  I'm sad that I no longer have Grandpa Jerry's wisdom, humor, encouragement, and conversations.  I'm sad that his dog misses him.  I'm sad that my grandpa will miss the next Rebel season (he said he would live for one more basketball season).  I'm sad that my dad is sad.  I'm sad that my aunts and uncle are sad.  I'm just sad.

And that's okay.  Because I know I'll see my grandpa again some day, as well as my other grandparents and great grandparents and cousin and loved ones that have passed on.  I miss them all too.  But the sadness will fade, and memories and hope for our future reunion takes its place.

But for now, I think I'll cry a little more while I eat lunch.